I woke up in a bit of a fog this morning. There was some high fog outside, which always gives the world a feeling of being wrapped loosely in cotton wool. That got, in SLO, is usually gone by late morning.
There was also a fog in my head. And maybe my soul. But since I keep those two closely connected, I guess this was a brain-soul-fog. Difficult to wake up. I went to bed very tired, so maybe it just carried over through the night.
But the external and internal fog leaves me with the thought, 'Why do anything?' That's a bad thought to have when your spouse wants to do a little calendar planning, and none of the options sound appetizing to DAH.
'You have to be honest about your feelings,' says the generous Christine, in response to DAH's 'I don't want to do anything' patheticism. But most feelings wax and wane. Just because I'm uninspired now, doesn't mean I'll be uninspired this afternoon.
When WriteMonkey started up this morning, the anonymous quote on the opening screen said, 'If you're losing the game, change the rules.'
As many of pointed out to me, I like to check things off my list. If I don't do anything, or don't want to do anything, there isn't much on my list except work (which I have to do or we don't get paid). So, 'Why Do Anything?' turns into 'Nothing On My Checklist' which turns into 'No Satisfaction In Checking It Off My List.'
Which means I'm losing the game. Which means I have to change the rules. Or learn a new life hack. Probably, I'm just tired or disappointed sometimes. I think I'll change my own rules and put some easy-to-check-off items on my list today. Check them off. Feel some satisfaction. And chase away the fog.
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